The Lesson of Humility that No One Wants

Normally I consider myself laid back, not easily rattled. However, I am finding that there is anger hidden deep within me. And there exists on planet earth a few things that can instantaneously make that simmering anger erupt.  For instance, technology.  Yes, we all want to throw our computer out the window at times (has anyone ever done that?) and we can all bemoan together how frustrated life is with technology (knowing full well none of us can live without it).  The rattle that I'm talking about is what I'm feeling at this exact moment.  As I type, I feel heat radiating through my body. Tears stinging my eyes that I am refusing to let be released (nothing more than pride). And complete and total anger that I don't know how to fix the mad mess that I've gotten myself into with my computer. Do you really want to know what's at the root of the anger? It isn't about the computer. It is simply the fact that I have hit a limitation within myself. I have no idea how to move forward, or even back up for that matter. I am totally at my limitation and now I have to ask for help. Funny, I pray with people all the time about this matter of not wanting to reach out for help - I guess we all have this "anti-help" button buried somewhere deep inside of me. Why don't I like asking for help? Because usually I feel stupid. Not that the people who help me make me feel that way, but simply because I was the one who got myself into this mess and someone else has to take the time to get me untangled from my own shortcomings.  I think the appropriate word to insert here would be a beautiful character word that all of us want but none of us want to journey through to get it: humility.  I am just plain proud (and angry too I suppose).
Second thing that irks the very core of me and aboslutely rattles my cage: jerk drivers. Those people who are either intentionally jerks or who are unaware that they're jerks because they can't drive.  Why do I get so angry? A few thoughts. Probably because they're an easy target. I don't know them. They can't hear me muttering in my car at them - in my mind they're a safe target.  Other thought - I know I'm not a great driver and I hate that I'm like them sometimes. Pulling out in front of people, kicking the curb because I didn't realize it was so close, driving on someone's bumper, speeding up and then smashing the brakes, etc. I'm sure I do all those things. It irks me that I am that very person that we all get frustrated at.  
So what is the point of this blog?
Good question. Actually, I just needed a healthy outlet to vent so I wouldn't throw my computer out the window.